Unethical

I remember a moment in my life when I can say, that I did something unethical.
That was when I met my present fianc, and I fell in love with him.
There are many beautiful things I would say about him, but beside that he brings to my life a lot new, unknown for me till this time – values, point of view.
His passion is ocean, for many years he was a professional seaman. He sailed a whole world around, but he does not smoke a pipe and has no bear:-) He doesn’t like to talk much about his adventures, but sometimes, especially if I let him drink a little of whisky, he starts to talk about the values in seaman’s life.

Superstitions are big part in the life of the “sea level guys”.
For example, you would never see Tom whistling, because on the old sailing ships all commands were given by the whistle, another reason for that is, if you whistle on the ocean, you can easily piss off the Neptune. When Neptune was mad, he might throw the boat on the reef.
If that happen the bodies of brave sailors were throw out on the short, where they stayed, except when somebody paid for the funeral.
For that treason every sailor at that time had an earring with gold coin, diamond or other valuable rock, which was a payment for the funeral.
Some time ago when he was going on his voyage, I want to give him something for good luck. But I remembered one sailor’s superstition, which says, that if you want to give something to seaman for good luck, you have to still it first.
I was confused, because I really want to give him something, but on the other hand I had to still it.
I was thinking to pay somebody to still something for me, but that would not be a really good luck gift from me.
One day, shortly before he goes, I made up my mind and went to store to still an elephant.
Why elephant? Because elephant brings a good luck.
So, I went to the store, felt like everybody knows what I’m going to do, I felt everybody’s eyes on my back, but finally I found the right one.
Was perfectly blue with a little silver chain to hang up to car keys,
and can fit in my closed hand.
The moment I was crossing out the store entrance, was the worst moment in my life, I was shaking, swearing and I felt like a criminal, because stilling, even that small thing is deeply unethical.
Finally, when I got into my car, I felt pain in my hand and also I could easily see the shape of the elephant, and the chain imprint on my hand, for a moment I thought that it would stay forever, but I also felt release, happy, because I knew that this elephant would bring good luck to Tom and bring him back.

At the time, my view was that I’m doing something wrong, but in the other hand I want to do it. I violated the basic right, which is taking something from somebody, which not belongs to me.

If I want to avoid behaving unethically in the future in such situation, I should never fell in love with Tom and his superstition :-)