Self deception

When I was a little girl I believed that anything is possible, I could be anyone I wanted and I believed I could do anything in my life.
I remember the firs time I engaged in self-deception.

Because I’m nice, open, tolerant person I thought that everyone around me is like I’m. Than, for so many years after that I have learned that people have different self-view and that determined them how they act.

When I was in elementary school my math teacher make me believe that I’m dump, For many years after that I believe him, I did not even tried to understand math, because I already knew, he told me, that I’m pure math ignorant. Some day in school appear new math teacher. He gave us orientation test, the problems in that test were make me look at it in different angle, that the other teacher and book said.
For that orientation test I got A+, and since that time I was a part of many math contest in my county.
World is dual, there are positive and negative illusion.

In this moment of my life, from the distance of my knowledge about who we are I decided to” deceive myself “ and believe that deeply people are good and the world is the best as can be.